I’m Nuts…Medication

i am not a doctor.  Please do not make the mistake of thinking i know more than a trained medical professional.  i am sharing my experiences.  That is all.Did you know there are so many psych meds in our waterways it is screwing up nature?   Here is an intresting article, if you are interested in such things :  http://www.newsweek.com/depression-medication-polluting-ocean-change-behavior-sea-animals-692253

As if nature did not have enough to worry about.


Lots of people take medication.  i take medication.  It is necessary and i have been able to reduce them considerably since getting out of the city and coming up here.  But there is no doubt i need them.  i know that.

But i hate taking pills.  Not that i have trouble swallowing them.  i hate taking them. It makes me feel inadequate and needy somehow.  i would rather suffer in pain than take an aspirin.  Guess it makes me feel more of a man.  “i can tough this out” or some other weirdness.

Stopping medication is common, i have found, among people with significant illnesses.  People with diabetes, high cholesterol and other illnesses which require regular medication and maintenance know what i mean. We get tired of needing to take meds every day.  At least i do.

Here is a study involving people who needed to take statins (meds to reduce the risk of hart attack or stroke)  http://www.cnn.com/2017/07/24/health/statins-side-effects-outcomes-study/index.html.    “Researchers studied over 28,000 patients in Massachusetts and found three in 10 stopped taking statins after experiencing side effects, which were presumed to be due to the drugs. Some 8.5% of them had a cardiovascular event, such as a heart attack or stroke, within four years — versus 7.6% of those who continued taking statins.  And 6.6% of patients who stopped taking statins died of all causes, versus 5.4% of those who kept taking them. ”  So these people die if they stop taking meds.  But they stop anyway.  Why?  Side effects.

Why do i stop taking my meds?  A lot of it has to do with side effects.  If you are on medication of any kind, you know about possible side effects.  It is usually on the little pamphlet thing you throw out with the bag.

Hopefully you have had a discussion with your doctor or pharmacist.  I found out, for example, that one of my meds is ineffective if i drink grapefruit juice.  This grapefruit phenomena is more common than you might think.

This can be a big one.  Blunted libido.  My partner is a considerate lover.  That is not the point.  You can tell me it does not matter.  But it does to me.  No more about that.

Psych meds with side effects.  No kidding.  Lots of possible side effects.  Like blunted coping skills.


Side effects can be killer.  The side effects of stopping can be even more brutal, however.  i know if i have missed my morning or evening meds.  My face goes numb, for one thing.  So i know i if i miss, but sometimes i want to see if i really need them.  And that is stupid, self-destructive behaviour.  No more experiments for me.

Another problem for me is a trust issue.  I’ve seen what happens if something does not work.  i don’t want to be someone’s science  project.  Here is an article: https://www.medscape.com/viewarticle/729897  titled, “Medications for Insomnia or Anxiety Linked to 36% Increase in Mortality Risk”.

Here is a significant conclusion regarding those particular drugs trusted:   “Although the mechanisms by which sedatives contributed to increased mortality risk were undetermined, these drugs impair reaction time, alertness, and coordination, thereby increasing the risk for falls and other accidents. Respiratory inhibition may aggravate sleep-disordered breathing, and central nervous system inhibition may impair judgment and increase the risk for suicide.”  An anti-anxiety pill that increases the risk of suicide.  Yummy.  Yeah, i want to take lots of those.

The main things i have learned for myself is that meds do not fix deeper issues, they only mask the pain or alleviate symptoms.  Unless core issues are resolved or at least addressed, symptoms will reappear.

No antidepressant is going to fix me.  It may help me to cope by managing chemical messages to the brain, but it will not fix me.  It can get me on the road to recovery, but if i do not do the hard inner work, i will simply find myself swimming in the same crap.

Not endorsing this guy or anything like that.  Honestly have no idea who he is.  But that is my personal experience.   A healthy recovery plan involves me consistently taking my meds, but i need to do more than that.  Did you know this?

First we take our meds.  But let’s not stop there.  Let’s put a recovery plan in place that will help us succeed.  Next blog:  Recovery Plan:  Exercise.

Medicated (thankfully)


4 thoughts on “I’m Nuts…Medication

  1. I found you on Beckie’s Mental Mess. I have the same problem. I have bipolar disorder and I frequently am on & off my meds. Mine is somewhat attributed to side effects but also, when I’m in mania phase, I think that I am okay so I don’t need meds. There are times that I feel ashamed for taking meds. Some parts of my family think that “thinking positive” will fix me but they have never had to deal with mental illness.


  2. yes, i have read some of your posts. I have been well-aware of the dangers of mania at the other end of the scale. So i take my meds. Being dependent on something is tough to take as well. And family…well, god bless them anyway! i have also had an exorcism scheduled once by a zealous friend. It is a tough battle, but there is a lot of support out there. Be safe. John


Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google photo

You are commenting using your Google account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s